Haih....
Mcmane gua nak tulis ni.......
By the time entry ni di tulis, most of yg kitorg kenal dah tau yg Ema has been positive H1N1. Yup.. no jokes, man. Gua mmg harap yg result paper yg tulis wife gua tu detected H1N1 just a big joke that APMC nak buat kat gua & Ema. Gua harap tetibe je Adlin Aman Ramli akan kluar & bgtau yg "wakenabeb!!"Gua akan ketawa smbil blasah mamat tuh dgn gumbiranye krana buat lwk x kenal tmpt ...but its not.
The fact is...Ema mmg confirm detected with H1N1. Jgn tanye gua mane dia dpt...Even opismate dia yg suspect pon dah release from hospital making Ema the 1st TIMEdotcom staf yg kena H1n1. Apsal la Ema yg kena? Bkn her other opismate? Tp soalan tu gua x patut tanye...its not my power to sesuka bg penyakit tu kat sesapa pon. Gua redha bini gua kena H1N1. Itu dah takdirnya... Gua xkan menyalahkan sesapa pon. As a pregnant lady...Ema mmg have a higher risk to get infected other than others except for kids, those yg ader lelah & org tua. That is the fact.
Another fact yg menyakitkan hati gua is that when Ema found out about the result from the nurse - I wasn't there. Gua xder kat sblh dia utk tenangkan dia, beb! Gua kat umah, sebok ngemas baju sluar aper yg patut utk bwk blk ke APMC. Ema dpt tau pas lunch tgh hari. Gua smpai jer APMC (dgn hati girang coz Ema was getting better this morning & hoping that the result just to confirm that Ema negative & ble blk umah) then kat bilik dia, gua konpius. Ngape katil dia kemas? Mane brg2 semua? Then barulah nurse panggil gua mengatakan yg Ema dah dipindah kan ke bilik lain. Then gua dah start rase x best bile tgk ader tag "isolated" outside of her room. Gua masuk, then nmpk Ema dgn riak wajah yg sedih... Gua tanye dia bile pindah bilik, "pas lunch td", smbil mata dia tgk ke dinding - pandangan yg ble tembus dinding tuh dibuatnye, x pandang gua pon. "Confirm ke syg?", tanye gua smbil pegang bahu dia. Ema angguk smbil memalingkan muka dia pada gua. Gua terus peluk dia. Gua rasa sedih, tp xtau ngape airmata x nk turun. Mata Ema mmg dah merah la. Sorry syg abg xder mase syg dpt that bad news.
Ema trus bertukar menjadi pendiam. Kami x byk ckp pon. Gua pon x nak ar byk sgt soal. Kesian kat dia. Mase tu ar gua tgk result 2nd test dia pd nurse kat luar. Terus je gua solat zohor dan terus berdoa pd ilahi. Gua x kesah ape nak jd kat gua, as long as Ema & baby survive the infection.
Doktor Sakinah dtg melawat Ema dlm pkl 6.40pm rasanye. Gua pon kena kuarantin selama 7 hari. Kena amik vitamin c & of coz kena pakai mask. X kira la nak kuarantin kat mane pon. As long as no contact with other fine human within the 7 days. Doc says that Ema is still at the early stage. Mungkin itu kehendakNya utk kami dtg ke APMC utk cek Ema. If not mane tau...gua mungkin lmbt utk bwk Ema g pakar which might end up dgn Ema dah lmbt utk menerima rawatan.
Then barulah gua smpaikan berita pd bos Ema & parents kitorg. Others...gua sms jer. Thanks semua yg berdoa utk kesihatan Ema & baby. Thanks gak to those yg kol tanye kabar, gua x tau cmane nak ckp ar.... Yg gua mmpu is just send sms to korg... itu jer. Kitorg mmg x bagi sesapa pon dtg. We do not want to cause others to be infected. If Ema sihat (Amin Ya Allah!!) biar kami yg dtg melawat.
Kepadamu ku berserah Ya Allah..
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